Thursday 10 September 2015

New semester just begin

hye hye hye..
salam new semester. huhu


New semester just begin. Aku nie semangat sangat entah kenapa entah. Mungkin sebab aku tengah move on kot. Bhahaha.

Nak tahu sebab apa aku move on? Because I'm still loving the same person who broke my heart. You know what I mean??? Hmmmm.. Susah nak buang rasa sayang ni. Dulu minat-minat macam tu je. Tak adelah sampai nak "tersuka" plak. By right, dia pun dah tak single. Padan muka.


I really do not like him before. Tapi, sejak kitorang rapat, amek kau. Suma jadi lain. Okey bhai. Dia datang.
Apabila perlu, paksakan diri senyum semanis mungkin. Ini penting semasa kita dilanda keresahan. ♥♥♥

Friday 4 September 2015

I'm giving up on you

As time passes, so, here we go. Aku berhajat nak tulis blog balik sebab people keep following me on twitter and instagram. Sebelum ni, I'm stop blogging because people keep on reading my post. Huhu

Same reason, right? So, malam ni topik yang aku cuba wujudkan adalah cinta sesama manusia. specificly, cinta ajnabi. Pertama kali kaki aku melangkah masuk ke alam universiti, aku sedaya upaya menjaga batas pergaulan yang ada. Sampaikan aku stop contact kawan sekolah rendah aku. Just sebab nak jaga ikhtilat.

Tapi, as time goes on...... Aku berurusan dengan ramai orang. Then, ade sorang mamat ni suka kacau aku. Seperti kebiasaan yang aku buat berlandaskan matlamat asal aku, aku cuba untuk ignore die. Masa tu hanya ada facebook dan twitter, instagram ade tapi taklah sesyok sekarang ni.

Aku tetibe stop conversation dengan die masa masuk first year degree. Itupun sem 2. Pastu, we were not contacting each other unless kitorang just say "hye bye" masa jumpe. Itupun aku dah malu. Back after 1 and half years later, kitorang rapat balik. And yes, dia mengungkit what was happened before. I admit memang aku tak jujur pun. And for your information, sampai ke hari ni aku memang tak jujur on my feelings towards you. 😝😜😜

He was with someone else at that time. Actually I'm the last person knew that from my friends. If I'm not mistaken, I knew he was coupled after they broke up. This is the real story I tell you. To be honest, there was other parties who blaming me because of their relationship. This is so ridiculous. 😡😡😡😡

And now, I can not say anything.
I need to stay strong. Just go with the flow.
I deserve someone better and you too.
But, I'm wishing you all the best in whatever you do.
Apabila perlu, paksakan diri senyum semanis mungkin. Ini penting semasa kita dilanda keresahan. ♥♥♥

Bukan mudah nak terima dengan hati terbuka.

hye everyone. sorry for not blogging.
You may see that my blog last updated  on 1st April 2013.  It was two years ago.

I just stop blogging because  I don't want to be only a keyboard warrior. But then, when there still my friends who keep on blogging so that's why I'm here today.

Before this, I wrote only what's in my mind and what's feeling I've been gone through. And now, I will continue to write what's going on me.

Back to the main topic, "bukan mudah nak terima dengan hari terbuka". Yeah, it's quite long for me to accept what was going on me actually. It was just happened today which I knew I'm not so-brave-one to face it. It's been a few years loving someone that he never know. Ouh maybe I would say, he knows actually. But he pretend not know it until aku sendiri yang mengaku kot.

From year-to-year, I'm actually tak nak pun keep that feeling. tapi, kenapa still ada juga. Bermacam peristiwa yang berlaku yang boleh buat aku rasa aku nak jauhkan diri aku, tapi still, he always keep in my mind.

Sekarang ni aku nak diri aku kuat je nak terima apa yang telah berlaku dan apa yang akan berlaku selepas ini. I'm wishing you all the best in whatever you do. Dari sejak awal perkenalan kita sampai sekarang, aku memang tetap tak kan mengaku unless aku memang betul-betul yakin dengan kau.

I'M MOVING ON

Apabila perlu, paksakan diri senyum semanis mungkin. Ini penting semasa kita dilanda keresahan. ♥♥♥